Last weekend I had the great opportunity to meet Sara Nash (from the Single Gal's Guide to RA blog).

She is as fun and funny in person as she is on her blog.  We spent time talking about dating and creating relationships, both romantic and other.  Sara shared her experiences, and some heartfelt questions.

In honor of St. Valentine's Day, I will pass along some of the wisdom and humor we gathered together.

Loving and Being Loved is an Important and Essential Part of Life.

It can be tempting to believe that it's "just not worth the effort" to extend yourself and create some meaningful relationships.  When you don't feel well, or perhaps you see yourself as damaged, or compromised, it is also a temptation to believe you're not worth it.

Neither of those beliefs is accurate.

Finding someone to love -- and being willing to let yourself be loved -- is one of the greatest gifts we can receive or share.  It can take some intention, some willingness to risk, and a dash of humor, but a loving relationship is possible -- and incredibly nourishing.

Commit Yourself to the Process.

Relationships don't "just happen."

There is often some tricky trial and error.

Sara and some others at our meeting talked about some "off" experiences -- dates who didn't "get" her, or who left because of the diagnosis of RA.

Well, isn't that their loss????

It's no fun to feel rejected, but sometimes these experiences are the only way to sort the keepers from the not-so-good ones.

Then it comes back to your own confidence -- that you are a gutsy, interesting, many-faceted prize.

You are more than your diagnosis -- it doesn't define you, and it is not the most important part of your self-understanding.

It is piece of your life, a shade of your color, but not your dominant hue.

You may have some inner work to do to know you are lovable and have a lot to give -- and if I'm talking to you, get started!

You may have work to do to put your intention out in the world, and put yourself in the path of relationships.  This requires some planning and some effort, but this is also doable.

Committing to the process is a good place to get started.

Manage the Unpredictable.

That sounds like a contradiction -- how can we manage what isn't known?

With a chronic disease -- that has fatigue and pain as unwelcome companions -- learning to manage and plan for the unseen circumstances can help provide a cushion of time, energy, and space.

As Sara said, "When you have a chronic disease, you learn you have to be very well organized."

That's part of it -- and preparing for contingencies is the other part.

Do you have a quick three- or four-sentence description of your illness, if you would need to explain to someone why you take pills, or why you walk more slowly?

Have you practiced some generic cover lines for times when you don't want to disclose?  If you would need to end a date, or chose an activity that is a little less strenuous than a mountain hike, you don't need to over explain or make yourself feel more vulnerable.

Everybody gets the flu, and many folks don't like to hike or bike.  A simple "I don't think that appeals to me," or "I got an unexpected bug.  I enjoyed our time so far, and I'd like to call you tomorrow when I'm feeling better."

Having some practiced words in your back pocket -- and giving yourself permission -- are two ways you can manage.

You probably have some I haven't thought of, and it's wonderful to share.

If you are beyond the dating and into a long-term relationship -- most of this still applies!

We still need to commit -- and re-commit -- to the process of loving and being loved.  A relationship is a deep gift in our lives -- and also requires intention, attention, and an eye to the unpredictable.

I wish you all well on your journey, and whatever your relationship status, bless yourself with a gift of appreciation and loving thoughts this Valentine's Day.

A valentine from me to you, and a valentine from you to you.

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What are your intentions?

Here we are -- into the new year and new decade.

What do you want to be different in your life?

It can be such a hard question.  We either see so much that needs to change, or we aren't sure what could happen.

But the exercise is worth thinking about, especially when you live with a chronic illness.  Your body and its unpredictable demands may paralyze your sense of hope and your expectation of a future that you can plan.  Thinking up goals is daunting and can bring up the feeling that this isn't possible.

So instead of planning with your head, sense what you intend in your heart.  Bring your attention down into your heart space and listen to where you want to focus your imagination and your energy.

It's not a set of goals and strategies, but more an internal centering.

Let yourself take some time.  This is a process and it requires your attention and some room in your schedule and in your mind to listen to what you already know.

What are you intending for your life this year?

Some of my clients are doing this exercise and discovering some surprising things.

One person thought her goal for the new year should be to exercise more.

She has made this resolution and goal several times, and it created a lot of guilt and frustration for her that she never "kept her resolution."

This year I suggested she listen to what she already knows in her heart and see what she might intend for her year.

She realized that her intention is to be more active -- not to just sit around feeling stuck.  But being more "active" is not the same as exercising.  She can be more active by planning to go out with friends, and that can include walks but it can also include museum visits and trips to the local public gardens.  As she listened to her heart, she realized she wants to move and do things -- and that will get her body in motion, but the physical moving is only part of what she wants.

My client chose to create an intention for more activity.  She took out her datebook and penciled in some times, and then she made contact with some friends.  What a difference from not "keeping a resolution"! By listening to what she wanted -- and letting go of a requirement for exercise -- she was able to move forward easily.

It may take some reminders that this is her intention as the months pass, but the good news is that she is no longer stuck in a rut of doing nothing and feeling bad.

This can happen for you, too.  Let go of some of your expectations of yourself -- and the rules that go with them.  Shift into your heart and pay attention to what you really want.  That will help you create an intention or two.  See if it isn't easier for your energy to flow in that direction and let me know how it goes.

Best to you as we embark on this decade!

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Just being who you are
not justifying or apologizing.
It sounds so easy
it's a life work
not to get caught in
producing
performing
proving
keeping accounts of indebtedness
waiting for gratitude, reward
ambition
manipulation
staggering self pity
but cultivating
the habit of being.

The Habit of Being – Letters of Flannery O'Connor ed. and introduced by Sally Fitzgerald, Farrar Straus Giroux, 1979.

Indeed, it is a life's work to cultivate that "habit of being."  Can you imagine just being who you are?

Very few of us can.  But this season as we hurtle towards the winter solstice in the northern hemisphere, and a new year around the globe, it seems important to affirm that our lives have meaning and worth just because we are -- not because of what we can do.  We are the gift, we bear the light.

Can you create a space in your heart, in your home, in your busy life where you can meditate on this truth, let it soak in and speak to you in your most weary, driven place?

This time of year can invite reflection, gratitude, and remembering.  No matter how difficult or complicated our health, our work, our lives have become, there is a pause where we stop, and look around.  There are blessings even in the pain.  Our struggles are not the whole story.

Where do you find the light?

Where is your heart touched and moved?

Who do you want to thank and bless this season?

How are you cultivating your being?

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